I knew I was being verbally \u201cabused\u201d but I just thought I deserved the way he talked to me. I didn\u2019t cook supper right, the car broken down again, the cat way dying, I didn\u2019t make enough in pay.
\nI used to want him to just hit me so I had a reason I feel the hurt I was feeling. That is, until he beat me unconscious twice and had no recollection of it. His family knew he had been cheating on for years with both men and women. They chose to accept the fact that he was abusing me and it was ok.
\nI was ALWAYS the problem according to them.
\nPolice told me that verbal abuse was considered as bad physical abuse. But I didn\u2019t hear them all I heard was he gets away with everything and is NEVER charged.
\nHe got everything in the divorce because his family paid for his lawyer and I couldn\u2019t afford one.
\nI got rid of the guns he would threaten me with.
\nI finally fled when he told me he\u2019s was going to kill me and THIS time I woke up and fled for my life.
\n6 months later I\u2019m still homeless, jobless (because of my looks) and my car is in need of repair.
\nWith having pets shelters won\u2019t take you which is ok as I wouldn\u2019t do well.
\nI\u2019m still searching for a way out of this rut, but I\u2019m keeping my faith, or trying to.
\nThere are no simple answers and I\u2019ve found unless victims have cold hard cash, they\u2019re on their own. Sure there are agencies that can help with counseling, temporary housing, etc it\u2019s just not enough.
\nI went from looking like the first photo to this. <\/p>\n
Since he has found me and his friends harrass me i wonder everyday day if this is the day he kills me.
\nWhat it is
\nI wish i had the resources to leave, but it is<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I knew I was being verbally \u201cabused\u201d but I just thought I deserved the way he talked to me. I didn\u2019t cook supper right, the car broken down again, the cat way dying, I didn\u2019t make enough in pay. I used to want him to just hit me so I had a reason I feel […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":164,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6,344],"tags":[665,374],"class_list":["post-16760","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-break-your-silence","category-survivor-stories","tag-eltmpl","tag-survivor-stories"],"yoast_head":"\n