I dated a guy many years ago who had threatened my life way before I even had kids… but before he threatened my life he used to abuse me mentally and physically, it got so bad and had so much control he used to sleep with a gun pointed at my head, I was sooo afraid and very young… All the signs was there before the abuse even started he never wanted me to go anywhere without him he always told me I didn’t need friends that he was all the friend I needed and he use to tell me I don’t need to ask my family for help because he would take care of all my needs .. Now I’m grown and well aware that those were red signs of abuse … I loved him so much more than myself I guess that was the reason I put up with it for so long .. Eventually I got pregnant and I had my first baby with him that was his second… When I met him he had custody of his son I thought it was wierd because most mothers have custody so I figured when a mother looses custody it’s usually a reason.. Either she gave up her parental rights or she violated in some kids way I never ask him out of fear but I always wanted to know because when I met his first child’s mom she seemed very scary and quiet the vibe in the air was strange… It was like you could smell it… I know I shouldn’t assume but looking back I know he probably threatened her for custody of their son and out of fear she gave him up… My intuition tells me that’s the reason so all these years I still believe that… One-day I told him I wanted to go visit my mom and he said he was coming with me so when we got there we was watching television and the Maury show was on it was a lady on the television that had got abused and tortured from her boyfriend and out of nowhere he started bussing out laughing and looked me in my eyes in my mother’s house and said that I was gonna end up just like her and he would have the perfect alibi… I could not believe the words that came out his mouth and to disrespect me in my mother’s house so right away I felt disrespected and violated so out of anger I balled my fist and punch the window out and shattered the whole glass… I didn’t even bleed I couldn’t believe it… He looked at me and ask why did I do that and I looked him in the eyes and said he was evil… So I decided that I didn’t wanna go back to the house with him but he threatened me and told me I better go back with him so out of fear I did… The sad part about it is I never told my mom about the situation… So months go by I got pregnant had a daughter from him. The relationship got worst… One-day we was in the car and we got pulled over he was the one driving he he pulled the gun out the glove compartment and held it under his seat he told me if I say anything to the police about him having a gun in the car that he would kill me and the officer right on the spot I knew from that moment that I had to start planning to get away from him because of how dangerous and toxic he was… I wanted to tell the officer so bad but I new in that moment if I said anything me and the officer would of been dead… So I kept my mouth close… Once we got back to the house days later I packed up my belongings and went to my mother’s house weeks went by and eventually I put him on child support so he filed for visitation and was ordered to get our daughter every other week… One night an angel came to me in my dreams I swear angels are real… And a angel whispered in my ear and said to leave my mother’s house and never return, I jumped outta my sleep woke my mother up and told her I was leaving and never returning she thought I was crazy I told her I heard the angel clearly and I wasn’t gonna take that for granted so that I had to go, in that moment I felt like my life was over not because I was leaving my best friend who was my mother but I told my mother to take care of my daughter that I was leaving her as well because her father had visitation and I didn’t wanna get charged with kidnapping for not following the judges visitation orders… I cried so hard because my whole life was about to change… My mother begged me not to leave remind u my daughter’s father didn’t have to visit her for another week but soon as I left hours later my mom said that my daughters father came there looking for me and he had his brother with him…SMH .. I knew than and there that he had to be coming to that house to harm me cause he had no reason to come to my mother’s house that particular morning .. When my mother told me that I cried because that angel came right on time!!! I told my mother to never tell him that I wasn’t coming back to let him think what he want… But eventually somehow he got custody of my daughter and I haven’t seen her in person since…. She’s grown now and it breaks my heart that I haven’t seen her out of fear of seeing him… I know this man wants to still hurt me and I don’t trust him at all… My mother eventually passed away and I couldn’t even go to the funeral because I knew that he’d be waiting for me there…. This man has destroyed my life and I’m still living in fear… He has located me on Facebook so I blocked him… He has multiple pages… He’s even hit up my Facebook friends and left messages on there pages saying and I quote “why am I still running” like there’s no remorse after all these years… He’s an abusive narcissistic and he’s very dangerous…So now I have been force to cut all my friends off from Facebook in fear that he would try and reach out to them.. I am still in fear from this man he has been a nightmare… I believe he has people following me and I believe he possibly have my phone tapped… This man is dangerous … I pray that God provides me a safe place soon because I really feel like he has located me and he’s gonna do whatever it takes to destroy me.. I just pray to see my daughter one-day… I started a new relationship I finally felt comfortable enough to tell him about my ex out of nowhere he said and I quote ” BY THE WAY, I forget to tell u that your daughter father hit me up on Facebook” my heart almost stopped because I couldn’t believe that this man reached out to him and he didn’t even tell me I felt in my heart that something was not right with him holding it back and not telling me he claim he forgot I knew in my heart that was a lie because he never told me what the conversation was so it made me feel betrayed.. For money people will betray you.. my new boyfriend had been acting strange and I felt it and that was the reason… He knew he spoke to my daughter father and didn’t tell me he kept it a secret… So I knew I couldn’t trust him … He eventually abandon me days later after telling me that they spoke… I don’t trust either one of them I was betrayed by the man I thought love me for a man that hates me… So now I don’t trust anything or anyone… I pray that God hear my cry… Cause I’m tired of living in fear…To anybody out there that’s afraid please move with caution and listen to your instincts… I pray you get safe and find a support system….Godbless u all
Notice: The names in this story are fictitious to protect the request for anonymity.
