My story is a hard one and I feel like telling it will help me move on I was with my husband ten years the first few years he was controlling money wise I couldn’t go out or have friends he would go for nights on end ignore my calls tell me i was obsessed with him delusional I feel pregnant he didn’t seem interested he was use coke and drink he would leave me with £5 each day for my tea I started to claim behind is back just to get baby items which I would tell him I got them for free just after we moved into are home from a flat COVID hit the drug abuse got worse from him after are child was born that’s when things got worse I had a emergency c section and after been home three days he demanded sex the pain I still Remember now he wouldn’t help with the baby I was basically a single mum the abuse got worse I wasn’t allowed out and if I did got Out I was watched and timed on the cameras round are house so after having a new born first time mum recovering from c section I tried my best to clean but it wasn’t good enough I was lazy useless and a joke and as time goes bye and are child gets older this would get worse every day I was called lazy I was called useless I was told I can’t do anything right from cooking to cleaning to dressing to eating to anything…anything I did it would be wrong one night he came home drunks he told me are child wasn’t his I said if that’s what you think that’s fine leave it then he hit me while next to are child I was speechless I didn’t no what to do he then left and didn’t return while next tea time with flowers kissed me and went pub I was broken at this point the abuse got worse I was screamed at constantly been told he hated me he didn’t want me he has no feelings for me anymore untill one night once again drunk around 5am in morning he started told me he was going to take me to court for my child said I was nothing he would knock my head off he was punching everything in the kitchen and then me that morning I prayed I prayed that I didn’t want to be alive anymore I cried and cried and begged god to take me away he went to be I was left alone to deal with the mess he left in the kitchen that day he went out didn’t look at me just went out that night I have police at my door saying he had been in a serious accident he was in a induced coma for 6 days then he died even now he has gone the pain I feel is unbelievable cause I do love him trauma bonds are one of the hardest things to break and with the right support am
Getting I will break it I do believe he was took so I could be saved
