I have been married to my partner for 9 years we have been together for 15. I feel like I have lost myself. I’m nothing like the person i was before we was together. He has took who I was and slowly transformed me into a helpless, hopeless , useless , afraid and scared shell of me. I’m always confused , I’m always nervous and expecting something bad to happen. I can’t remember the last time i relaxed and felt safe and normal. He doesn’t allow me to work so I’m at home by myself all the time he has even destroyed my ID, SS card and other personal documents so I can’t even get a work from home job. He has a job I’m not allowed to know how much money we have, I’m not allowed to have any money, if I need anything such as cleaning supplies to clean his home , laundry detergent to wash his clothes , soap to wash my body and hair I have to ask him if can get me what I need he usually gets me laundry detergent to wash his clothes and things that’s I use to clean his house with not issues. It’s the soap for my body and hair that he always forgets to get for me. He told me to keep reminding him incase he doesn’t remember. So every morning I remind him for him to forget before he gets back home from work. If I had any friends I would ask them if they would bring me some but I don’t have any friends. I’m tired of stinking from not having proper hygiene products but I’m afraid to tell him how i feel cause it always starts a argument and he gets so mad at me. I’m tired of being afraid, I’m tired of being confused and feeling lost and trapped. I’m tired of not being able to talk to anyone or have friends. I’m tired of not having clothes of my own anymore. He threw all my clothes away and he tells me what I can wear of his clothes. I have not left the house In almost a year. I don’t know how to get out of this. I don’t know where to go who to talk too. I don’t have a car , job or money.
I also have a miniature pomeranian and a rabbit that I can’t be without because they are all I have they are my family and my best friends. Does anyone have any advice or suggestions that’ll help me ?
The Journey of a Domestic Violence Survivor: Healing and Resilience
By Survivor The life of a Survivor of Domestic ViolenceThe repair of the abuse is never repaired because the damage is too unrepairable, mental or physical abuse stays with the survivor for life.Future relationships will be affected by the triggers of the survivor and the relationship will usually suffer, to...
