she wants us to go to a house that is under her control, she’s going to harm us physically, emotionally, and spiritually, I have proof of what happened, my body is the proof, i want to hide away from them, I need help, the judge is giving her custody.
I remember the day that the first time that I was r@ped happened during summer, I was 7 years old, I remember that I was playing in my room when mom called me to her room, I went and when I went in I saw a tall, white, strange man, I was scared, then she told me to take off my clothes, I didn’t want to, I refused to take off my clothes in front of this stranger, she yelled at me to take it off, then she said ‘I’ll just take them off myself’ she took my clothes off while the man was watching, i was curled up on the floor trying to cover myself up, I was scared, I was confused on why a mother would tell her daughter to get naked in front of a stranger, all she wanted to do was to help him rape me, then she told me to listen to everything he tells me to do, he grabbed me by my hair to get me closer to him, I tried to bit his hand so he would let go if me, but mom pushed me towards him, he started taking off his pants and he grabbed his penis and he yelled at me to open my mouth, I shut it refusing to open it, that’s when mom grabs my mouth as she tries to open it, then she left me in the room with him, I was crying while he was forcing his penis in my mouth, he shoved his penis down my throat and I couldn’t breathe, I felt like I was going to die, he pulled and pushed my head back and forth, then I felt something go down my throat, it felt disgusting, then he pushed me on the bed and he shoved his penis into my vagina, it was painful, it felt like I had been stabbed, I was crying and calling for someone to help, but me put a pillow over my face to stop me from trying, after he was done he left, I was curled up crying, then mom came in and yelled at me for getting blood on her bed, that’s when I realized that i was bleeding from my vagina, she told me to take my clothes and get out of her room, I when to the bathroom and started the shower, I was really uncomfortable and hot in that area, and I just wanted to clean myself from all the blood and semen that came from that man, I was in the shower crying and I was really depressed for a long time after that, but this was just the first time of 7 horrible years of my life that ended in 2021 because we got away from her control , and we started talking about what happened to us, mom tried attacking us several times after we left her, but she somehow covered for herself or someone covered for her several times. me and my siblings Aaryam and Aalah would rather be taken away from her and into a Foster Home rather than be under mom control, please we need the government to take us, nobody wants to listen to us, they always listen to her and what she says because they can’t believe that she would do that to her own children.
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