August 24, 2019

Suicide…. Driven to suicide. Narcissistic Abuse is on the rise. Suicide is now an epidemic. It’s no coincidence and it’s so sad to think that such cruelty is even possible. What’s worse is that

it’s being allowed to happen. Domestic Abuse is perhaps the most unjustified of all crimes.I don’t feel like I live in a Country that protects me anymore. I feel like I live in a society that doesn’t know me. How could they without understanding what happened to me? Can anyone really “understand” without experiencing this type of abuse themselves?

I’ve been attacked in so many different ways. The pain is unexplainable. I did what I was supposed to do. I testified about the abuse. I knew he was going to be mad. I was afraid. But I had no idea it could be like this.

It’s been like a horror movie and I’m the only witness. Everyone thinks I’m crazy. I’ve lost everything and anyone I ever loved or cared about. I’m all alone. I was in the hospital for a month. I voluntarily admitted myself into the psychiatric ward because the pain has been terrifying me.

I’m afraid if it gets any worse I might lose my mind completely. I was afraid I might kill myself and that is something I know not to be the answer. I don’t know why or how I’m supposed to go on.

I used to think I was all alone until one day I heard Dana talking about “Flying Monkey’s and how abusers recruit people to help them just mess with Our lives in so many ways.

I just wanted to say that I wish I had the strength to fight! But I’m just existing and I don’t know how. I will not kill myself though. But I pray that somehow someone can get through to others so that the mask is off day so everyone will recognize the Narcissists. . I really just don’t want anyone else to have to go through this.

Please make it stop someday. Or at least make it something that the law really tries to stop.