When I gained a step mother and step sister Shelby at 8 years old, eventually I wanted to go with her some weekends when she would go with her dad Scott. I thought it would be fun! It started when he would stand us side by side in our bathing suits and compare our bodies. He would tell his daughter how her stomach n hips weren’t curvy like mine were and how beautifully shaped my body is. It made me uncomfortable but then I didn’t know why. After all these pool trips and weekends, he offered to buy us alcohol at 12yo. We had went to a liquor store and bought “fuzzy navels” wine coolers. When we got back to his house mid day, he offered us weed. I took a sip, after a few minutes I felt more than drunk. After feeling like that for a minute he offered me weed and I took one hit and I passed out from feeling overly intoxicated. I was blacked out and I woke up for a second to see I was laying on my back with my legs bent up, he was performing oral sex on me. I saw the door open and my step sister look in, her dad closed my legs and threw them to the side n laid his head on my thigh in an attempt to make it look like he’s not doing anything to me. She closed the door immediately after seeing the action then inaction. He continued after she closed the door and I was frozen solid and blacked back out. I don’t remember anything after that. At age 15 I became fully addicted, I got a text offering drugs so her dad picked me up and immediately gave me the drugs, by the time we got back to his trailer, I was blacked out again and he raped me.
I later found out in my teens that my step sister (not my step sister anymore) did see and know what was happening bc she told me only one time. Then denied it ever since and hates me. I confronted him at 29 years old, he told me I was a whore and wanted it. I’m now 31 and I’m still trying to recover from this trauma.
This photo is me currently, I’m finally working again since the anxiety and depression from those events made it impossible for a while. That was a goal of mine once I recovered from the abuse. My main goal is to be a psychologist to specifically help victims of any abuse, and addiction.
