I can’t. I’ve lost my battle , as a human woman by extreme violence Plained to me. I was threat 17 years ago I will be destroyed as a woman made to look unfit. Forced mental brain harm shocking forced disable to a wheel chair. Made to look unfit and destroyed as a woman and my future love life. Thats when I was pregnant .I was threat that if I divorce my monster. I married a person who threat excessive control threats ,he is very abusive . He has hit me jumped in my vehicles hurt our child . He sent my child to me unable to walk when younger . He was s@^ually abused hurt very badly . I took him for care and contacted law and had an order of protection months. Then my child was having nightmares from what happen climbing a wall in his sleep. He had stop talking much. The ex often had used our son by not feeding him often . He was using him, to hurt me knowing he wasn’t being cared for. He was using him to get me to file then he would tolerated knowing he was gonna win custody. He said he knew authorities and can get by with anything and hurting me and my son .saying he bring him in this world he can take him out. I was a caregiver to children prior many years from home . But this one child I’m made to look bad like I can’t care for him by fraud . Transfer harassed, gaslighted, stalked ,he would jump in my vehicle ,break in my apts, harassed me hit me. Transfers school anything he never obey by any rules. He felt he was above laws. I could rarely see my child by his sick control. I lost my time standing up after months of a order of protection .then later son would arrive bruises he was kicked for taking. A few years later the ex allowed even worse events to happen at his house . My son was being hurt things that shouldn’t be happening their . Again I tried to help my child he begged for help. But I lost time . Then I had to pay to see my child at a center. For trying to protect him. Everything is one sided in the courts .the abuser pays autherities who harm more. My abuser threat to destroy me by medical boards harm and even military friends he was gonna get medical stuff to hurt me by coning them .He signed bio gen altering to my ovary to start a mental hormone altering . A wrong care for spite for Endometriois .then he signed concerieve control brain chest devices..but he left if off for purpose to get infected knowing I have allergy to mental Cooper..then my thyroid shut down . He made me miscarry a second pregnancy prior while with him. He ordered abortions drugs 2 saw in his computer screen. He slipped those to me to hurt me I fell to the floor felt the life come out of me. Then he delayed my care to remove the contents dead 2 cords saw on ultrasound. Later he jumped in my vehicle busting my belly stitches .I had to go back to sew my belly back. He threat me so much I went to a counselor to document it.but it didn’t do any good. He was gradually signing choosing my medical harm care half hormones and implanted altering . He enterfered in a marriage next. I couldn’t travel out of state where new husband house is. He made rules like my child couldn’t go to my house if husband’s their. I couldn’t see him if I have a pet. The list goes on .He enterfered in my marriage to exstream scedal demands . That husband passed. Then years continue harrassent gaslighting trying to see my child. I get engaged again years later . And I was trying to go into a training . After getting onieted to marry.. I get assaulted during a surgery. I was denied my glasses and all rights to be enformed. Abussive litigations. He caused me to be signed up for a sex reassignment. No body told me anything..I was denied my man I love in waiting room. I was tortured harrased pointing a blank papers. Told time to die and more money if I die. I never signed anything . Law never did arest anyone and it was all Plained by ex. My husband and I have been fighting for my life and fighting to try to undo all this. While they keep hurting me as a excuse like it has to be done. Because the ex hides it confidental where I can’t defend myself to see his fraud .they keep hurting me at appointments they did female genital mutilations. They ugly my face nose jaws and they made my teeth buck toothers and snaggy out . I can’t even smile and I had prior perfect teeth perfect smile. I’m being tortured yet by all this over many years. I still can’t escape it. They con my son to minipulate control over him to not be able to visit mom. He is older but he is treated like a 5 yr old. I’m being treated like a non human. Punished for divorce and punished for all our abusers crimes . My life has no meaning . He destroyed my life as a mother ,this all effects my other children by another marriage .He destroyed my current marriage.we were happy in love ,but Im mutilated to where we can’t have a normal love life. Plus I no longer feel good about myself ,I’m hurt very badly. He has destroyed my careers and volunteer services by to be abuse assaulting interfering in all I do and all my my body damage and my life. For me i haven’t escape it , I can’t . Destroyed my life is of no meaning. Denied of life pleasure in anyway .I can’t get any law help, doctors are hurting me badly by the care I’m getting to my body injuries. I can’t list my photo and information. I’m not a survivor , it’s ki!!*ng me .Violence is real ,money goes along for it to continue by santanic ways.Paid Done.
