My story – Jennifer C

At the age of 11 I was sexually abused by my father. I was abused, abandoned, and make to feel like I was crazy for even wanting the closure and the courage to finally walk away and for them to leave me alone. I have endured hurt physically, mentally, and emotionally. I was told they had me on a hit list and because I was around a certain someone that they were going to have me killed. I was isolated from the world. Became a shut in. I wanted to get away and yet because of my finances I couldn’t. I turned one of my abusers in and the cops didn’t do anything about it so I feel like I didn’t get my justice. I feel like no matter what that I couldn’t speak out. I feel like I wasn’t being heard. I was getting very angry, and depressed, and even suicidal. I wanted the pain and anguish to be done. I feel alone in this because my support system wasn’t there. I tried many different ways to be financially well enough to get myself out of this pain. Seems like the ones that came into my life wanted to just make me relive it. I was verbally abused from my father at a young age on. I was made to feel like I wasn’t worth it. I just wanted to get away from it all. I am taking my power back from all this. I feel like I cannot ever be happy because the pain and trauma haunts me everyday. I am healing everyday and I need a better life past all this.