10 Years…..
May 30, 2013
I came home from work. I tried to open the door to our house but it was locked. Usually it is open because our kids get home from school. I knocked once. Then mid second knock, my husband opened the door. It was like he was standing there, waiting for me. I walked inside, feeling the tension. After he shut the door and locked it, I felt his hands on the back of my arms and he then threw me across the living room..
I laid on the floor, stunned. He then got on top of me, strangling me, cussing at me, etc. At one point he grabbed me by my hair, dragging me and threw me around. I was kicked, choked, called names…Then, at one point, I found myself on the couch with a gun pointed against my head. I pleaded with him to not do anything because the kids were home. I will never forget his words. He said “They are not here. I made them leave because I am going to kill you, you fucking bitch.” I honestly thought that I was going to die. Not long after, he threw me around some more. At one point, he threw me to the ground and walked away. That was when I made myself get up, run to our back door, unlocked it and ran. I could see his arm reaching for me…Neighbors saw me running and let me in to their car. They took me to my job and from there, they called the police.
I had scraches aroud my neck from him choking me and bruises all over my body. I could not walk the next day due to my knee being the size of a softball. I was so pale and literally weighed 80 lbs. He had a back packed, ready to run. So he basically planned on killing me.
This was not the first time he had abused me….And did I mention, he slso abused our kids.
I felt like my whole world had fallen. You never think that the one person who is suppose to love and protect you will be the one who hurts you the most. He hurt me in more ways then one. I was so depressed and not sure what I was going to do that I literally wanted to die.
The first few years were so rough. But little did I know that they were to lead me to where I am today. Those that are closest to me, know how much I have struggled but also my little victories.
So, 10 years ago today, I got my life back. I will never be 100% ok from all he did…the abuse (verbal, sexual, physical) cheating on me and gaslighting. But I have came so far from where I was on that day. I honestly feel someone was watching over me that day. I am forever grateful to be able to walk away. Not everyone who is in a domestic violemce situation has been fortunate to do so.
